Fun With Cars
February 16, 2009 by Ryan
We had some fun recently bringing the kids’ cars in from the garage and playing. I love making little movies so I took the footage and made this!
After watching the finished product we notice that the kids would crack up so we record that too!
I know this is a pretty lame way to get back into posting, but hey! I gotta do it!
My Little Family
October 22, 2008 by Ryan
It’s after midnight.
I’m up because both Kimberly and Jeremy have colds.
I’m sitting in my bed with Kimberly sleeping next to me, so cute, so peaceful…other than her occasional cough.
Next to her is Beth, with Jeremy sleeping on her chest. I’m jealous. I love when they sleep on your chest. He just giggled in his sleep! That’s good, poor little guy caught Kimberly’s cold. He really loves his mama!
Beth is asleep…I think. I think I might be keeping her up with my typing. She’s so good with the kids.
It’s so sad but sometimes it’s so sweet taking care of the sick babies. Every now and then they snuggle into you, or do something off the charts cute and I exchange looks of “Ahhhhh” with little half-frowns with Beth.
You might think that I’d be thinking, “This sucks!” Instead, it makes me think of how much I love being Daddy!
The Challenges To Realizing Our Inner Potential
August 21, 2008 by Ryan
Image by Life in Asia (aka Life in Nanning)
“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.”
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Today I had one of those small victories that you need to overcome your inertia/laziness. I woke up early, put on my running shoes and ran to start my day! It was nice and cool with a bit of a breeze (actually more of a gust, we’re just down from these). Running into the wind was okay because I knew it would be at my back on the return trip. I didn’t know how far I was going to run, I just had a street that I wanted to get to and then turn around. It got my heart beating! It wasn’t until I looked it up on Google Maps that I realized that I ran 1.4 miles! And I did it in about 10 minutes! Considering how long it’s been since I ran, I was ecstatic!
I’ve been meaning to start exercising for a little while now as part of a newly kindled desire to improve myself. This desire has been slow building over time and goes beyond getting in shape. I wrote about Josh Waitzkin’s article in which he discusses learning and learning what quality feels like. That article really made me want to develop myself.
What Lies Behind Us
Life gets busy, and if you don’t consciously decide to act, life will sweep you up and take you in directions you might not want to go. Whether through neglect or through mistakes, the weaknesses we have accumulated hold us back and give us ready excuses not to try. Here are some weaknesses I want to overcome:
- Disorganization: I have so many things going on at the same time, from work to blogging ideas to bills to family to business ideas to errands on and on…and I am not the best multi-tasker around! I get distracted, discouraged and overwhelmed. To improve, I am trying to simplify and prioritize more.
- Out of Shape: I can’t claim sympathy weight anymore! Actually, I never could. Basically, it comes down to poor eating habits (way too much Coke) and lack of activity. I sit at a desk, in front of a computer all day. I think the lack of self control is the worst part of it. I should be in charge, not my urges!
- Debt: Some things come out of nowhere, catch you off guard and put you in a difficult situation. My son Jeremy’s medical expenses came as one of those things. We found out he had spina bifida and that totally altered “the plans” as we assumed they would go. While I would love to say that that is the only source, unfortunately, it’s not. Student loans, car payments, credit cards. Some was necessary, some was not.
What Lies Before Us
Overcoming our baggage is only half. How difficult it can be to actually improve ourselves can also prove to be too great of a obstacle for us. Getting up every morning, forgoing things you want, disciplining yourself are hard things to do. I talk to people at my work who know they need to change, know they can’t keep doing what they’ve been doing, and yet, the commitment and hard work it requires to make the needed changes prevent them from getting out of their rut. The reality is, that’s the price you have to pay. Here are some of the sacrifices I can see I’ll need to make:
- Time: To accomplish my goals, I will need to sacrifice some of the time that I had for other things: sleeping in, staying up late, watching TV, etc. I already consider some of that to be no sacrifice at all, having started this way a while ago. There’s not much TV that interests me anymore (except Michael Phelps…curse you!) and combining the ability to DVR the things I do see (bless you DVR!), I spend very little time watching TV, especially by comparsion to my former use.
- Guilty Pleasures: Today was actually the first day in months that I did not buy a Coke! It’s terrible, I know. Luckily for me, I don’t drink, smoke, chew or drink coffee so I don’t have those challenges to take on (best of luck to those that are trying to kick the habit). The other habit that my family had was eating out all the time. It was ridiculous looking back at our bank statements how much was from restaurants!
What Lies Within Us
I’ve taken my outline from the Emerson quote at the top. He is one of those thinkers whose insights are timeless. He talked about how man is meant to aspire to more than just our instincts to eat and sleep. He wrote, “A man is a god in ruins.” I believe that we have tremendous potential within ourselves and we can realize that potential if we pay the price to develop it. What the human mind and the human body can do is amazing! Look at what Michael Phelps has done: 8 gold medals! But that came as the reward for unyielding focus and effort. That is what I want to develop, the ability to focus and develop and persist until something great happens. I want to be better.
This post is part of my Be Better Campaign Series
- The Challenges To Realizing Our Inner Potential
Serenity…In Life’s Challenges
July 29, 2008 by Ryan
Our experience with Jeremy’s spina bifida has been a trying time in our lives: learning the worst-case scenarios, not know the extent of the paralysis or problems, moving only two days before Jeremy was born, the harrowing race to the hospital, watching him go through surgeries to close his back and place his shunt. People that have been under similar kind of stress know what that pressure is like. Luckily, we had tremendous support from family, friends, doctors, nurses, and work. I really needed to talk about it. Sorry to those that had to listen, but it helped to relieve the burden I felt.
One of the many lessons I’ve learned from all this is that everyone has challenges that they are going through! My eyes were sort of opened to the situations around me. One situation that was very close in timing with our experience is that of Phil Burns’ daughter Serenity. I read one of Phil’s posts about Serenity’s chemo and it tore me up because my Kimberly is the same age! Phil has dedicated himself to fighting cancer however he can. One way is a blood drive. It’s tomorrow and I know most of you wouldn’t be able to make it, but it brings to my mind the importance of giving blood. I hate it, and my wife is much worse with needles, but it’s more important than that. It really is a shame how few people donate.
If you can make it, wonderful! But if you can’t, make it a goal to donate in your area. I’ve chatted with Phil a few times about the frustrations, fear and anger a father feels when he can’t protect his child. Hopefully, I’ve been able to share his burden those few times we’ve talked. Do the same. Take the time to notice suffering around you and offer a helping hand, or even just an understanding ear.
Little Angel
July 20, 2008 by Ryan
We recently went to an Orem Owlz game, and we went all decked out in Angels unis (The Owlz are the Angels’ Single A team). We were taking pictures and in these pictures it looks like Jeremy might have some red in his hair! It’s actually not too surprising because Papa Ottley had red hair.
Kim had a blast running all around the outfield grass seating and on the huge playground. She had a pink Angels jersey and wore here Daddy out.
Go Angels!
We’re Home!
March 11, 2008 by Ryan
We’ve had Jeremy home now since last Friday and it is wonderful! Obviously, much more comfortable to be home and to be together with our little girl too. She has been so sweet to him. I can’t believe how well Jeremy is doing! He’s an eater! We’ll get Jeremy TV back up and running here soon. Thanks to everyone for all their love and support!
Jeremy Aint Gonna Be a Leap Year Baby!
March 2, 2008 by Ryan
Jeremy Michael Miller was born February 27th, 2008! He has a little hospital stay to get through and so we have a live feed setup if you want to check in on how he’s doing (he’s doing great!)
Pray for Jeremy
November 27, 2007 by Ryan
It’s hard to describe the emotional rollercoaster my family has been through this last 2 weeks. For those of you who have not heard, we have some concerns for our little boy, Jeremy Michael. He’s due in early March. I’ve waited to write about this until my wife had and she did a good job of explaining what we’re up against.
We’re Pregnant!
When we found out we were pregnant it was a pleasant surprise: we weren’t trying, but we weren’t not trying. It actually was about perfect because the baby would be about two years apart from our daughter Kimberly. I really did not care whether it was a boy or a girl. If it was a girl, Kimberly would have a sister right close to her age. If it was a boy, hey! it’s our first boy!
Saying Hi to Jeremy
About two weeks ago, we went in for our doctor’s ultrasound. I just Twittered…
Just saying hi to Baby Jeremy @ my wife’s ultrasound!
After the ultrasound, I went to take care of Kimberly as Beth went to go talk to the doctor. The doctor called me in. She said us down and told us they saw some things that concerned her and that we’d need to go see a specialist. Needless to say we were in quite a bit of shock. I think I had always assumed everything would be okay. I think most parents in general think that way.
We went to see the specialist the next day, which was nice to not have this unknown hanging over our heads for too long. He did another ultrasound and then sat us down to talk about it. Again, I’m not going to rehash all the details, Beth did a good job in her post. From that discussion we were faced with that reality that our little boy had Spina Bifida and the possibility of worse. The doctor explained that there might be a chromosome defect and we then spoke with a genetic specialist. She told us that the most likely of the rare problems we could have would be Trisomy 13, which would most likely mean we wouldn’t have him for very long.
Perspective
I was going to write that it “hit us like a ton of bricks” but, honestly, we were fairly calm about all of it. There have been things that have come up in the last while that, I believe, happened to prepare us. We’re very blessed to have the perspective that we do. We know that whatever happens, in the grand scheme of things, we’ll be okay. We know that if he was only with us a short time, we wouldn’t be losing him forever. If we do get to have him, whatever challenges he’s going to have we can do it. Not on our own, but with the Lord’s help. We have wonderful families that will be there. We know that we’ve been seal as a family, and that we will be together after this life.
The Results
As it turns out, I have been writing this post here and there since that time and we found out that there are no chromosome problems! And we are so grateful and happy that there aren’t. I want to thank all those that prayed for us. One of the first thoughts that I had was to call my family and ask them to pray for Jeremy. And we still need those prayers and that faith. Now we know that Jeremy will be with us for a long time and now we are praying that he will be able to walk and not require a shunt.
I am so excited to have him. I love him already. Knowing how much I love Kimberly, I can’t wait to have my little boy!
We Evened the Odds!
October 5, 2007 by Ryan
2-to-2!
Two girls (Beth & Kimberly) and now two boys! That’s right Jeremy Michael Miller is on his way! He’s due late February, maybe early March.
We found our we were pregnant a little while ago and have been waiting to find out since. I honestly would have been happy either way. If it was a girl it would have been fun for Kimberly to have a sister right close to her. And if it was a boy (as it is) then, hey! We have a boy!
I am so excited though. Our neighbor said to us, “If anyone needs a boy, it’s Ryan.” I guess I’m just a big kid! I can’t wait to play catch, to go to his first baseball game, and all that male-bonding stuff!
I hope it doesn’t seem like I’m going to have favorites because I love Kimberly! I can’t even put it into words! She’s my baby! I think she is going to be a great big sister.
Kids are awesome! If you don’t have any, you should make some. (Yeah, yeah! At the right time, right place, with the right person, yadda yadda. I know!)
